It’s Valentine’s Day today and I’m hoping to be surprised by my boyfriend, although I don’t think I will be. He doesn’t really care about Valentine’s Day that much and doesn’t understand the significance of the day to me. It’s definitely disappointing, especially as I do everything I can to be romantic and thoughtful to make him feel special. I just want to enjoy the same kind of love back.
To make him feel special, I went to the hardware store local to Cheltenham and bought him all his favourite tools. He’s a tradie and I knew that he needed an upgrade on his tools and so I bought him a whole new batch of them. They cost me over $1000 and I didn’t bat an eyelid. I just wanted to make him happy. Apparently he didn’t want to do the same for me, seeing as we were together this morning and he didn’t give me flowers and now we’re both at work. It’s not looking good for us because I want to be loved and feel loved. I’m really disappointed by how this has ended up. I just want him to love me.
When I gave him the timber supplies purchased in Cheltenham, he was ecstatic. He knew in that moment how it felt to be loved and appreciated, and I longed to feel the same. It was a bittersweet moment for me because I love making him happy and I just wished he wanted to make me happy too.
I’m not asking him to spoil me or anything. All I’m asking is for him to show me the love that I deserve. Valentine’s Day just reminds me of sadness these days. I just want the day to be over so that I can go back to feeling relatively normal and happy. I might just call in sick today and look after myself and make myself happy for a change.